Either Fight Or Die

I was at the beginning of a quiet and cold road. I was walking alone, out of breath. I was worried about the silence coming out. I had mixed feelings in such a short time. But most of all, I felt fear and anxiety. The same questions were circulating in my mind in the deep street I was walking. I was literally feeling the silence in my body until that moment. There were sounds of running behind me. When I turned my head and looked, this face did not look different. Then I started running with all my might. He continued to follow me as if he were a shadow after me. The faster I ran, the faster he got. That scary one I’m running fast on I entered the dead end of the street between two buildings on the street. I took a quick look around, this was the last stop. There was not longer any hope,I was either waiting to die or to fight. I looked down and I saw a long piece of iron. I immediately took the piece of iron in my hand and then he came. Now I have chosen to fight and struggle against life. He was very angry because I hurt him so much years ago. Now he had come to hurt me, even kill me. Even though I’ve been so bored with life lately, it’s too much to die right now passed. So I took a deep breath and handed the piece of iron towards him. It wasn’t my intention to hurt him because I’ve caused him enough pain in the past,My only goal was to protect myself. He is angry with me he continued to look with his eyes and then said: This is the last stop for you, there is no escape from here. After this blood-chilling sentence, he started to run faster and suddenly jumped on me. It was obvious that her past experiences had worn her out a lot, so she wanted to take her pain out on me. There was a long struggle between us. I was worried about my life and he was killing me. To the piece of iron in my hand I looked and I looked at him, I didn’t mean to hurt you but I couldn’t die now. Desperately, I stabbed her with the iron piece in my hand.Even when I think about what I’ve done to him  in the past  while he suffered the torment, I have now harmed him. The expression of suffering on his face after I stabbed and removed the iron once again finished me of. I didn’t know what to do while she was writhing in pain.
Just as I was running away from there, a voice came from behind me saying, “I am your shadow, wherever you run, I will find you one day and I will make you experience what you did to me”.

I didn’t know what to do while she was writhing in pain.Just as I was  running away from there, a voice came from behind me saying, “I am your shadow, wherever you run, I will find you one day and I will make you experience what you did to me”. All I wanted was to get out of this scary place without dying. It reminded me of abig labyrinth, but the only problem was that I would never get out of this complex labyrinth again. I would not be able to escape.  Let’s say I escaped today, but how am I going to get out of this maze for the rest of my life? Thousands of thoughts were running through my mind. I started to lose hope.I was out of breath and sat on the edge of the curb to get some rest and at the same time I was thinking about her, maybe I had run away from her today or will I be able to run away again tomorrow? These thoughts In order to get over the shock of the event, I adjusted my breathing control and started to breathe.  And suddenly a black image was reflected, I rubbed my eyes with my hand. But this the first time I saw it was red.  There was blood all over me. On my hands, on my clothes, on my face. I panicked even more and that sound made my heart beat faster. I saw the blue and red light approaching. This sound was the siren of the police car. I got up from the pavement with the panic at that moment and started walking with fast steps in order not to get suspicious.This sound was the siren of the police car. I got up from the pavement with the panic at that moment and started walking with fast steps in order not to get suspicious. Heartbeat with that fear I could hear my voices. It was an indescribable feeling. I could still hear  the siren of the police car very close.I was just about to start running when I changed the direction of the police car.I felt a sense of peace inside me. And I threw myself on the ground, meeting the drizzle on the asphalt.For a moment I felt free, like a bird out of its cage. But the thoughts that came to my mind were still bothering me. Somehow the prison roads were waiting for me. After what happened in the past, it was pointless for me to roam freely outside.But all I want is a quiet, peaceful and free that’s why I had to walk in the snow and not show my tracks.The raindrops were getting faster and faster, I was completely wet. All I see around me is ruined and abandoned houses, burning a street lamp and a midnight blue sky.

The bloodstains flowed away along with the rain water. I got up and started walking. After walking for a while, I saw a taxi passing by, I didn’t have a penny in my pocket, but I had to go home.Stand with my hand towards the taxi I made the sign. He came to me and stopped. I took a taxi and described my home address. I was in a mixed mood because of what I went through during the day.For a moment, I forgot everything and sank into the blackness. The light wind blowing from the taxi window was hitting my face.And a voice came out “I can’t wait for you, We came to your house, give me my money now” the taxi driver was a very angry man. But there was something I did not take into account, how will I pay the money? I told the taxi driver that I don’t have any money with me right now, I told him to wait here and that I would go to my house and get the money back to him. The man, who was getting more and more angry, nodded his head. I got out of the taxi and started walking towards the door of my house.I opened the large iron door of the building and entered. I climbed the stairs of the building and came to my house on the 1st floor. In my poverty, I was looking for money to pay the taxi driver. I was looking for money in my small and poor house, but I found only a few coins. My room was the only place I didn’t look in my tiny house. I reached for the doorknob to open my room’s door. And the door I couldn’t believe what I saw when I opened it. He was in front of me and was pointing a gun at me. Now it was the end of the road.I could never escape my shadow. The bird that escaped from its cage would die in nature. From fighting I wasn’t going to do anything because I was tired and I surrendered myself to him and waited to die. And the most painful thing was that the person in front of me was my own brother…

 

 

 

 

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